It really didn’t matter whether we hugged or kissed

Spending time with her is what made me feel loved and appreciated, giving me attention. It really didn’t matter whether we hugged or kissed. As long as she gave me her attention, I felt loved. But I felt that she didn’t find me attractive. Then I decided I would not take the initiative because I didn’t want to be rejected.
The best thing we can do with the failures of the past is to let them be history. Yes, it happened. Certainly it hurt. And it may still hurt, but she has acknowledged her failure and asked for forgiveness. We cannot erase the past, but we can accept it as history. We can choose to live today free from the failures of yesterday. Forgiveness is not a feeling; it is a commitment. It is a choice to show mercy, not to hold the offense up against the offender. Forgiveness is an expression of love. “I love you. I care about you, and I choose to forgive you. Even though my feelings of hurt may linger, I will not allow what has happened to come between us.